Me As Afida S

Last Monday, I saw Cik Ha (my uncle, die kawin ngan mak sepupu saya, Mak Cik Lina) at hospital, tp tak sure sebab his family ade kat KL, die lak keje kat Johor, canne le hade kat Spital Melaka. Tp, sy quite yakin saya tak salah orang. To make sure, sy contact Cik Lina. Kami ni bukan la baik sgt, so saya takde no fon nya, kene mintak ngan my sister. To introduce myself, I use 'Afida' sbb ayah Cik Lina calls me by that name. sometimes he calls me Afida S. Mase kecik2 dulu la…. Apa S tu? Rahsia terbesar akan terbongkar, bukan rahsia pon sebenarnya, da bejuta 6 orang tau kisah ni, cume mungkin kawan2 belum la..

Masa tu, I was 3 or 4 years. I think it happened in my great grandmother's house in Jerantut. It was night time, actually I slept already. Suddenly, I woke up crying "Ipaaaaaaa…ipaaaaaaaaa!!!!" camtulah lebih kurang, that's whay they told me. Kelam kabut semua orang masa tu, nak ape budak nih? Ingatkan ade lipas dalam baju, kebas2 takde lak. Bagi kipas lak, kot panas. Satu pon x jalan. Saya lak, asik meraung je. Sebut perkara yg sama. Tak tahu la berapa lama diorang mati akal cari ape benda sy nak. Last2, sy pon lupe apa yg jadi. Rupenye2 "ipaaaa.. ipaaa" yang dimaksudkan ialah selipar yang baru dibeli siang hari td. Nak tido ngan selipar baru rupenye. Ceh!!!

Dah dpt nape Afida S?? hehe.

Faiyo (Org India sebut 5)

I have 2 tags to be replied, but I choose this one first, easier…

5 things found in my bag:

Handbag ke bag skolah?

Bag sekolah:

1. Note book O&G
   
2. Plastic rooti
   
3. Coklat smarties
   
4. Pen biru
   
5. Pen merah
   

   (cukup 5 gak)
   

Handbag

1. Rantai leher panjang
   
2. Wallet
   
3. Tissue
   
4. Resit2 pembelian yg x dibuang
   
5. Pen
   

5 things found in my wallet

1. Money – to pay house rental
   
2. Card CIMB
   
3. Card Bank Islam
   
4. Card Jaya Jusco
   
5. Card Tesco
   

5 favourite things in my room

1. My bed
   
2. My cupboard
   
3. My pillow
   
4. My tilam
   
5. My cadar
   

   (I shifted all my favourite things to living room)
   

5 things I've always wanted to do

1. Sleep
   
2. Read hematuria b4 surgery exam today
   
3. Duduk2 and baring2 watching my 'haven't watch' downloaded movies
   
4. Go home
   
5. A&E.. hihi
   

5 things I'm currently into

1. Medicine log book
   
2. Medicine clerkship diary
   
3. Study for end posting
   
4. Detective Conan (epi291-500++, tgk sampai muntah beb!)
   
5. Man About Town
   

5 people to tag

1. Bond
   
2. AC
   
3. Yani
   
4. Ami
   
5. Naufa
   

Memahami dan menghayati kalimah syahadah

Sebagai orang yang lahir sebagai Islam, jarang sekali kita member perhatian kepada kalimah ini. Ya benar, orang yang mengucap kalimah syahadah dijamin masuk syurga. Adakah semudah itu? Adakah semua orang yang mengucapkan syahadah akan masuk syurga regardless ape yg dia buat di dunia ini? Ish, ish, ish. Silap besar tu.

Kalimah ini Nampak cam simple : Tiada tuhan selain Allah, nabi Muhammad pesuruh Allah (Saya tak reti nak eja dlm arab), tp membawa maksud yang sgt besar dan bagi sesiapa yang telah melafazkan kalimah ini, ada tuntutan yang besar menanti mereka, ada komitmen yang solid perlu ditunaikan. Sebab itulah, bapak2 sedara nabi dulu cth, Abu Jahal, Abu Lahab dan lain2 tidak mahu melafazkan kalimah ini. Bukan sbb mereka tak faham, bukan mereka tidak tahu kebenaran yang dibawa oleh anak sedara mereka, tp kerana mereka sgt2 faham, terlalu faham, commitment yang harus dipikul setelah melafazkan kalimah ini. Tapi, berapa ramai antara kita yang faham kalimah syahadah sebagaimana Abu Jahal dan Abu Lahab memahaminya?

Syahadah dibahagikan kepada 2 component :

1. Tiada tuhan
   
2. Kecuali Allah
   

Kenapa 'TIADA TUHAN' dulu?

Ini maksudnya penafian. Ertinya, kita perlu nafi dan buang dulu benda2 keji dan selain Allah sebelum memasukkan kebaikan. Di sinilah kalimah 'Kecuali Allah' datang sebagai penegasan atau yang perlu dimasukkan lah. Analoginya begini:

Kita sebagai orang yang ingin menyewa di sesebuah rumah, mendapati rumah itu amat cantik dari luarnya. Kita pon eager la nak sewa rumah tu. Sayang seribu kali sayang, masok je bilik tido, dengan dindingnya cat hitam, langsir merah macam biji saga, mengerikan!!! Dinding2 pulak ade gamba2 porno, majalah2 lucah lagi. Kain baju semua bersepah kat lantai. Apa kita akan buat? Adakah kita yang islamik ni akan tampal je poster 'Allah' or 'Muhammad' diatas dinding yang hitam legam yang dipenuhi poster2 lucah itu? Adakah kita akan letakkan saja Al-Quran kita diatas majalah2 lucah itu? Kalau itu pilihan anda, anda cuba berjaya menambahkan keserabutan bilik itu sahaja. Ya, tentu kita akan mengambil plastic sampah yang besar, dan masukkan semua sampah sarap ke dalam plastic itu, tarik langsir merah tu dan repaint the wall. Anda Nampak persamaannya? Kita perlu buangkan dulu kepercayaan karut-marut dan khurafat itu untuk memasukkan kepercayaan kita kepada Allah

Apakah kepentingan syahadah?

1. Kunci kepada Islam
   
2. Merangkumi segala intisari ajaran Islam, yang perlu diikuti segala yg telah diperintahkan dan perlu meninggalkan segala yang dilarang.
   
3. Titik perubahan yang complex dan complete
   
4. Janji ganjaran besar drpd Allah
   
5. Asas perjuangan rasulullah
   

1,2,3,4 tu analoginye begini : Bayangkan first day kite gi rumah mentua (lebih kpd jika anda seorang wanita, lelaki pon leh jugak, tp x berapa seswai), mestila kena masuk ikut pintu depan kan? Takkan la tetiba "tak bleh2! Saya tak biasela masok kot pintu depan kena masuk pintu belakang". Jadi, nak masuk Islam, seseorang tu perlu terlebih dulu ucapkan syahadah yang merupakan kunci tuk masuk Islam, bukanla ckp 'ana muslim' ke, 'saya da masuk Islam ke' sebab itu adalah pintu belakang. Hehe.

Ok, bile dah berada kat rumah mak mentua kita ni, kita akan mula mengintai2, mane mak letak gula, garam dan sebagainya supaya senang kita nak masak or buat air esok. Takyahla nak kejutkan semua orang tuk buat air, ye x? Pastu kiter kene ikut lak tabii yang berlaku dalam rumah tu, contohnya mak mentua kita memang sediakan satu ampaian pjg tuk semua orang sangkut towel die. Walaupun kat rumah kita main sangkut je kat pintu, tapi kat rumah mak mentua tak bleh la buat camtu, kang kene bebel lak. Jadi, berlakulah perubahan yang complex dan complete pd diri kita. Mungkin kita rasa ala, benda kecik2 nih pon nak berkira ke? Tp, kite tetap perlu berubah sbb rumah tu ade peraturan yang tersendiri, takleh main ikut nafsu kita jer.

Sebab ape? Sebab kita nak amek hati ibu mentua kita. So,apa yang kita buat must pleased her, barulah die akan sayang kat kita. Gi mane2 pon, sebut nama kita je. Ape perasaan kita, kalau die pergi rumah anak menantu lain asik2 sebut nama kita je. Bangga kan2?

Yang ke5 tu, adalah kenapa Rasulullah sanggup bersusah-payah menghadapi dugaan, tentangan dan macam2 lagi, sbb inillah asas perjuangan baginda, tuk pertegakkan kalimah tauhid di bumi ini. Baginda tak mintak pon dicanang nama nya, Cuma baginda minta kita sambung apa yang baginda perjuangkan.

Mungkin apa yang saya coretkan di sini tidak cukup untuk membuat kita memahami erti kalimah syahadah itu (carilah orang yang berilmu utk mengetahui dengan lebih lanjut)

-Perkongsian bersama SMN

Ke arah menjadi doctor yg baik : Menyelamatkan houseman

You hurt our pride

Have u read the above article about a physician commenting about houseman.

Some say : he's too much. He just hurt the pride of medicine profession. It's in our blanket, let solve it in without pull the blanket down. Furtherrmore, houseman just step out from universities. Still cannot cope with the environment of hospital, very different. It's tyme they merge the theories and clinical, shud give them some time. They're in the stage of learning. And about the simple procedures they r unable to do. They are skills that need to be learn. They require time to learn, even a great speacialist sometimes miss the good result. And the physician are suppose to guide them, make them know not torture them.

My say : the 'some say' is true. Maybe the clinical procedures we are not really exposed in our medical college (but some eager and find their own chance to do) but the basic things like history taking I think we have enuff time to practice. It just depend on us how much we read and how much we know the question to expand the presenting symptoms.

Yeah, maybe this article a bit too much that it hurt the houseman's pride. It shud be discuss and corrected under the ground so that public won't know this problem. But, we cannot deny public know much better than we doctor do, even some information are misleading. Public can judge who is good who is bad (some patient knows question bad one didn't while a good one do as well they know what good one will examine while a bad one don't. so many student examine them what?!! Haha)

Since this already happen, maybe public know maybe they don't. we have no choice but to bring up the pride again. Gain as much as u can in during this study period and perform well during your housemanship. The more u give the more u get. Give the boss a 'culture shock!!' :))

Evil nobody

Remember colour personality test (betul x susunan ni?) we did in one of 'Gadis Melayu Programme'? I turn out to be a RED personality. I have most of the features, but there's one bad thing I realized about me, I know, I understand but I can't change because I really have to change myself if I wanna change this. Berbelitnya ayat, tp the truth. I tend to hurt ppl that I'm close with. Bukan hurt macam mana, I tend to buat lawak bodoh yang terlampau (org klate kate gurau bewak). Taking they know me well, so u know, no heart feelings. But i'm totally wrong. I think that shud'nt hurt but some friends don't.

In primary school, I have a what so called best friend. Then, I hurt her. Don't really know how it's happened.whatever lawak bodoh I did, she left me. It was the time that I really blamed myself, for don't know how to take care of a friendship. I don't speak anymore, quite a long time. After a while, she came back. But, everything changed, of course. I don't really know what to talk, scared might hurt her again. Then, we separated in high school. We still keep in touch until now, I'm still filter words to come out. I think she quite ok with my jokes now. Maybe da matured sekarang, so da paham la.

In my high school, I became the same me,the person with lawak bodoh yang terlampau. No one know me, so bolehla kembali ke perangai lama. Then, I found Sally, same2 lawak bodoh. Walaupun masing2 kenakan masing2 tp still, we get along together. Our friends said, we were like sisters, same2 lawak bodoh. I also like to melawak bodoh ngan Bond and Boye sbb diorang cam tak kesah je, layan lg ade.... huhu. I think there were a lot if ppl who really layan me, especially my classmates. Back there, I mmg like a little sister, semua org layan me.

In INTEC, I cannot remember. I think I don't hurt anyone. I don't know, but I think I was pelawak bodoh jugaklah di Intec. No memory intact la di sana. What I know, I spent most of the tyme with my 'apartment' mates. Jiha, Fatin, Dina, Nurul and Ilya in the first year. Tak ingatla ade orang terluka ke tak. Xde kot, cam baik je our relationship. In 2^nd year, I got along with Ada n Nebby, until now. They are also kinda lawak bodoh, but I liked to ngusik Nebby, die cam x kesah pon, xtaula kalau terasa.

In Manipal, I think I changed. I didn't speak much in the beginning. Until my fren from INTEC asked why I became so quiet? Not like in INTEC. I don't know. Have I hurt someone that early?? Huhu.. yeah, I made somebody hurt. She was very close to me. It's not due to lawak bodoh, but some misunderstanding and she said actually there's a lot of things I said she cannot stand (my lawak bodoh la tu) . Then, everything changed. I really cannot get close to her for quite some time. I really cannot face her, I dare not speak than hurting again.

Back in Melaka, I tot I'm a lady enuff to make lawak bodoh. I think I don't do lawak bodoh anymore, but it seemed ppl keep hurting by me. What shud I do? I can't keep quiet all day long. I just cannot.

I think I really changed now. Not the one I used to be. I'm a silencer. I dare not speak. I'm scared. You may see me so serious. Believe it or not, I'm not that serious. I'm just scared if I start talking, ppl might get hurt. So I rather stay stiil and look cool, even I'm not.

But of course, I won't leave the lawak bodoh thing becos I found someone. Sape lagi kalau bukan my rumet, Che Ah….!!! Beri tepukan pada Che Ah. 10q kerana sudi layan me. Che Ah ni, die layan je, x tau la kalau die pon terasa jugak. Tp kalau die malas layan, die senyap je, then I know la I have to stop. Ramai je sebenarnye org2 kat sini yang I suke bergurau bewak, I hope they not terasa, kalau ade pon don't keep in heart. Sometimes, most of times I don't mean it. Kat sini, semua org sibok study, takde orang nak layan da my lawak bodoh. sometimes, i buat muka bile ade org mintak tlg or ask me to do something. i guess it my normal reaction, but i'll help as much as i can. jgnla takut nak mintak tlg....

I'm really looking forward to see my classmates. I missed to bergurau bewak ngan they all. I miss our laughing. I just feel so alienated. But, I don't need ppl to understand me, I'm still looking for myself, let me understand myself first.

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Merasai nikmatnya

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Maafkan aku andai keterlaluan pintaku ini…

The boycotting ends here?

Adelah satu hari tu, my fren told me die Nampak agak ramai orang Islam da makan Mcdonald balik, KFC and so and so forth. Tidak kurang juga budak2 kolej kami la. Bile ditanya,

"kata mereka kan perang dah abis. Dah2 la boycott nya"

Amboi, senang nya ckp. Adakah anda fikir inilah perang terakhir zionis tuk orang Islam? Sejarah akan berulang.. anda rasa dah berapa kali genjatan senjata dibuat antara mereka? Hasilnya, betul genjatan senjata berlaku, tapi Zionis took the advantage of the period to kumpul dana beli senjata2, sepatutnya masa genjatan senjata nihla kita boycott, supaya they all x cukup duit tuk beli senjata betul x? Dah masa perang baru nak boycott, sia2 jelah. They all da ade senjata, takyah beli pon takpe dah.. betul x?

Hari ni, my rumet citer ade sorang kawan dapat poster drpd McDonald Malaysia 'merayu' jgnla diboycott mereka sbb mereka tiada kaitan ngan Zionis, semua duit tax kerajaan yg dapat. Wallahua'lam. Saya pon xtau. Anyone boleh mencerahkan?