Isu Kawin

When I was a teenager (teenager? I can't believe I'm an adult now) I always want to get married earlier, as Rasulullah said " Wanita yang berkat itu orang yang kawin awal". Something like that la.. Tapi, bile semakin besar nih, rasanya the point of view is different. Ke sebab takde orang nak? Well, partly true. Actually, it's not nobody want me, but I dumped them all.
Kawin muda, seronok tu memang la seronok (seronok ke? :p) tapi adelah pro and cons die. Maybe ramai yang sokong, tapi kita takbley tolak pendapat yang menolaknya. Tak kisah la, kalau da sampai jodoh tu, kawin la jugak kan?
Well, why I chose to change my mind?
1.Dulu2, mase dok kat rumah, memang la tak rase.. tapi bile jauh dari family, jauh dari parents rase lak betapa penting nya they all in my life. As a lady, kalau I kawin sah2 la I kene tinggalkan my parents kan? Adil ke? Sejak dari kecik diorang jaga I, tup2 dah besar, senang2 nak blah camtu? Tak adil kan?
2.Ade sekalitu, I konon nak berdikari la, tanak mintak tolong die buat something, then it turned other way round. Kalau i mintak tolong die mase tuh, insyaAllah takla camtuh hasilnya. So, this is what he said when I said I didn't wanna trouble him " Kalau tanak susahkan ayah, tak payah jadi anak ayah la..." erkk, so i decide i still nak susahkan die.
3. I nak semua susah payah my parents skola kan i selama ni dapat kat diorang balik. Alhamdulillah, I da kasik 5A UPSR, 8A PMR (satu B simpan sendiri :P), 10A SPM, dah datang India, so i rase biarlah they all boleh bangga ngan i sampai i dapat degree. Kalau i kawin kang, laki i la plak orang puji nanti.
4. Insya4JJI, I nak berbakti kat my parents dulu before i get married. sejak dari form 1 i duk hostel, sampaila skang tak penah lekat kat rumah, so before i leave that house again, just let me be with them..

" Your Rabb has decreed you that: You shall worship none but Him, and you shall be kind to your parents; if one of them live to their old age in your lifetime, you shall not say to them any word of comtempt nor repel them and you shall address them in kind words. You shall lower to them your wing of humility and pray: O my Rabb! Bestow on them Your blessing just as they cherished me when I was little child" Al-Isra':23-24

And to my future husband, I tau i pon patut usaha looking for u, but i just don't feel like. Ape kata U je carik I. I tunggu ok? :p.. tapi jangan datang awal sgt....tapi kalau jodoh dalam masa terdekat ni, ape nak buat kan? hehe